It’s always hard to say goodbye.
On my October 12, 2007 post entitled “Why Goodbye?“, I laid down my thoughts on saying goodbye, and why I regard it as “the hardest, the most painful and the saddest (also according to Celine Dion’s song) word compiled by the lexicographers”. After that post, series of hellos and goodbyes happened up until the last moments of 2008.
New Year’s Eve became a short yet fulfilling period of reflecting for me, amid the relentless banging. Nostalgia sank into me upon reminiscing the events that happened all throughout the year. It then stirred mixed emotions inside, remembering my wide smiles, twinkling eyes, great laughs and most bitter ocean of tears.
What many people don’t know about me is my tendency to become highly sentimental over things, individuals and events I regard of high value. Looking back and realizing what those things did to me on my eighteenth year in this world, 2008 is indeed my most memorable year to date. That night, saying goodbye to my best year yet was a bit hard. I still don’t want to change 8 into 9. AS IF I CAN DO SOMETHING TO MAKE IT POSSIBLE. LOL. Am I just afraid to turn 19, gradually saying goodbye to my teen years? Presumably there’s something more to that.
I’M FRAGILE, maybe because of my youth, and being at legal age does not mean ample maturity and firmness towards things. Still, I can be provoked and be broken into pieces. Maybe that’s what I’m afraid of, after having reconstructed. Like a child starting to learn walking, a wall tested by time and circumstances would be vital to strengthen my knees.
Thanks for the leap second, I had a breather for 2009. Whatever life will bash on to me, it matters. But it won’t crush me anymore, I hope.
Welcome, 2009! Happy New Year! 
January 6, 2009 at 4:50 pm |
happy new year yom!
nu ka ba. wag ka matakot.meron pang twenteen. twenteen-one..twenteen-two…etc…nyahahaha. teenager forever. pwede naman eh. by heart
mejo madrama tong post na ito ah. hahahha. apir na lang friend. parehas man tayong senti, but atleast mukhang happy naman tayo nitong pagpasok ng 2009. hehehe..
January 7, 2009 at 2:10 am |
you don’t have to be afraid, ganyan din ako dati. Look forward promise masaya pag tumatanda
January 7, 2009 at 3:34 pm |
I can relate! haha.
I love the “I’m fragile part.”
happy new year too!^^
January 7, 2009 at 7:05 pm |
Happy New Year Yom. New Year New Blog! Visit me. hahaha
January 7, 2009 at 7:05 pm |
Aging is what we normally fear of and everybody goes through that. You’ll eventually learn to embrace it and be comfortable with it as you mature.
I kinda like this excerpt from Albom’s “Tuesdays with Morrie”. It’s Prof. Morrie’s perception of aging:
“As you grow old, you learn more. If you stayed at twenty-two, you’d always be as ignorant as you were at twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It’s growth. It’s more than the negative that you’re going to die, its also the positive that you understand you’re going to die, and that you live a better life because of it.”
Hope this one helps. ^^,
Oh? And one more thing? I should’ve said this long before, thanks for being one of the best online buddy that I’ve ever known.
Cheers to 2009!
January 8, 2009 at 4:07 am |
achuchu salamat sa pagbisita mo ha hehehe
January 8, 2009 at 1:22 pm |
A toast to 2009, Yom!
Reading your entry, I remember a popular line from Semisonic’s famous song “Closing Time”. It says, “Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end.” True enough, the start of each New Year beckons a lot of opportunities to begin new things, continue beautiful ones and reshape or change bad habits for the better. This is of course only possible once we have finally learned to leave behind what was and had been. What is most important is that as we age and as the years pass us by, we learn and we live applying what we had been taught of. In doing so become wiser and more discerning of things.
Fragility is the common characteristic of the youth. Some manage to attain the right amount of maturity at this stage while others still live static lives. As for you, I believe you are wiser and you have matured more in the past year. Take the lessons you’ve learned from your varied experiences as you live and seize each day of the New Year. =)
Find comfort in the fact that you have (as you said) been reconstructed and are now ready for what’s ahead. The wall will always be there. Lean on it and you’ll be alright.
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January 11, 2009 at 7:07 am |
That’s why I call life as a bitch, learn how to fuck it Gerome.. I know life seems to be harsh, but its still is enjoyable as going to EK. Life’s full of surprises, and we shouldn’t be scared of getting old! Grow like a butterfly, fragile at first but metamorphosize until it becomes beautiful.. Happy new year! cheer up mate!
And in case you need help, I’m just here.. A chat away!
January 12, 2009 at 2:04 am |
glad to see you back!!! =)
happy new year to you!!! =) all the best!
January 16, 2009 at 1:31 am |
Hope the new year brings you joy and blessings.
January 16, 2009 at 9:00 am |
were all fragile, masarap magkamali, kasi dun tayo natututo. habang tumatanda, mas marami’ng baon..
nakakainis lang mag sisi, kasi hindi ka makakamove on 
January 21, 2009 at 10:41 am |
offtopic
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January 21, 2009 at 1:53 pm |
aging is what I fear too,I wanna be forever young